I lacked so much confidence in myself I was afraid to even work on my friend's guitars for free.
Hey everyone. 1.5 year status report on FEFT here.
I still have a lot of stuff to work through, but I've also worked through a lot of stuff. A real lot. A few major changes I've experienced since finding and practicing FEFT since May 2014:
-Look a lot better (new hairstyle, nice clothes, keep my facial hair looking nice -- I had MAJOR resistance to paying any attention at all to my appearance, and I wasn't even aware of how bad I looked and how much I neglected myself
-Got over some body image issues. Have a little beer belly at the moment but overall look better and healthier than I ever have, and instead of hating myself when I look at myself, I actually like how I look, flaws and all. Eating well and not obsessing about food. Compare this to having been anorexic and orthorexic. At my worst I was 115lbs. I'm 190lbs now at 5'11" and am feeling more resilient than I ever have and have more respect for myself than I ever had.
-No more panic attacks waking me up at 1-2 AM
-Anxiety keeping me up at night is much less frequent than it used to be and I'm falling asleep easier than I used to.
-Much greater confidence which led to me starting the first relationship of my life at 25 years old. This is after a long history of many years believing that it could never happen for me, and would never happen for me - there were a LOT of internal references and beliefs about this that I cleared out with FEFT.
-Confidence also led to things like one of my passions developing: guitar work. I lacked so much confidence in myself I was afraid to even work on my friend's guitars for free. Over the past year I've taken on much harder work including a recent repair on a vintage guitar worth around $4,000.
I finally dove in and did the repair and it came out great and I wasn't even worried about the guitar being so valuable. I just had the feeling that I could do it, and I did it.
I've also been taking on things I've never done before and having the confidence that I'll figure it out. I've been focusing on building skills and improving instead of spending all my time and energy on beating myself up and worrying and doubting myself.
All this sound too good to be true? Well, it's been a LOT OF WORK! FEFT is not a free ride, and you'll only get out of yourself what you put into working on yourself.
In the beginning I was tapping for HOURS every day. Whenever ANYTHING came up, I'd tap on it. I'd wake up from a panic attack at 1-2 AM and start tapping on whatever it was that was bothering me. It was a daily practice for at least 8-9 months.
It did taper off after I started making some major improvements and backed off on the intensity.
I just didn't need to tap as much over time.
It's required a lot of time and effort on my part outside of FEFT. But without FEFT I don't think I could've gathered the energy to do all these things, or had the confidence or self-esteem to focus on them and follow through on them. I was too preoccupied with all the negative feedback in my head, and that had to go first.
I'm still working through a lot of issues, but the difference between me now and me from before FEFT less than 2 years ago is nothing short of crazy. It's unbelievable. The amount I've changed is truly amazing. I can hardly believe I'm the same person.
Still have issues?
Oh yeah. Just as much as any of us do. But I'm dealing with a lot LESS ISSUES than I used to, and the major issues have felt much, much easier to control, and some of them seem to have disappeared completely.
Keep it up, everyone. Persistence is the key. There is no doubt in my mind that FEFT works and I encourage all of you to keep going with it. This is a reminder to myself too to never forget that FEFT is in my toolbox for life.
FasterEFT as 'morning meditation'